Summer Time and Life Updates

I feel like I start every post with “I know that I haven’t been here for a while,” it’s that guilt that eats at me when I neglect anything in my life. However, this silence has been mostly peaceful. I feel like I am finding my place in the world, finally. Or at least, I am allowing myself the grace to grow slowly. Our world is so fast paced, and I am always feeling left behind.

The thing is, I like going slowly. Once I allow myself to be slow, anyways. I like taking my time and listening to the birds, watching the sun shine through the trees; taking my time one word, one stitch, one step at a time.

So for Spruce Knits, this means that I am allowing myself to be slow. I am going to take my time to learn how to write patterns effectively.

This summer I am going to be rewriting my first three patterns. The Colorado Cowls. I will be editing them for better understanding.

I am also going to be relearning how to dye and find the colorways that sing to my soul. Spruce Fiber Co will be back in October.

I am also going back into the real world.

This year, I have been working on getting my teaching license. While, as of right now (Monday June 13 at 10:30 am) I don’t have a full time job. I am working as a long term sub at a middle school and I LOOOVE IT. This is what I was supposed to do. I can’t believe how fulfilling this job is for me. The kids, they’re kids, but they’re amazing. This is absolutely the right thing for me to do. I can’t wait to tell you more, and I am yearning for the opportunity to be a “real life teacher”

That’s it for the update. I hope that you are all doing well.

Here I Am

Well, it’s been a fun pandemic eh?

Freaking oof.

I want to apologize to everyone for straight up disappearing. Sometimes life gets too heavy to carry the all of the extra weight. Some things fall apart without you even knowing, until you’re in a room unpacking all of your things and just sobbing. Forever.

Depression is awesome.

But I am here, I never meant to let go of Spruce Knits, but it was too heavy to hold onto. I never meant to stop writing, but it felt like tooooo much. The weight of unfinished projects, the feeling that I am disappointing everyone around me. The barely hanging on and not being able to do everything while taking care of my children.

So instead of taking a break, I just quit.

Sometimes you need to just drop all the extra ish and take care of yourself. And that’s what I did, with the help of my amazing and understanding family.

I feel stronger now. Able to slowly come back into my own. Slowly bring myself back to Spruce Knits and all good that Spruce Knits can do.

Thanks for hanging around. Thanks for being here all along.